Spiritually Speaking

I’ve been at a loss for words for the past four months, about the most generous act of love and kindness. This beautiful, intelligent, talented, soulful young woman, while I’ve never had the pleasure of meeting her in person, our souls have crossed via the World Wide Web. And to think it all began with butterflies.:)

There are writers who make a good living from their craft. I pray that I will be one of the chosen ones who do as well. Last September, I was making very little money and it was the only income that was coming in. I was running out of food nor could I pay my bills.

The last thing that I wanted to do was to burden someone that I care about with my problems. I don’t know if he realizes this, but I even have a hard time talking to my son about my troubles.

When my friend Promila told me via email that if it would help me to talk about it, to share it with her. I had this soft, gentle feeling in my heart that told me it was okay. That I could pour my heart out to her without feeling judged. So I did. With tears pouring down like rain with each stroke of the keys on the keyboard.

I never expected for her to offer to help me financially, though. It felt good just getting it all out. The heart-wrenching crying felt good, too. I felt cleansed. Like thousands of toxins were released from my body.

Well, help me she did. I was able to pay my three month over-due phone bill and my domain bill. Without your help, Promila, my phone would have been turned off and my domain would have expired, even with a grace period. I was just about out of laundry soap, dish soap, and hand soap. And of course, food.

I stretched that mone as much as I possibly could these past four months. I honestly don’t know where I would be financially without her help.

She even offered to help me get some freelance wriitng work. But…I’ve never written any samples and because of the type of work I do, I don’t know what I should write about. Maybe that’s just an excuse because of my fears of not being a good writer.

I’m sorry for taking so long to write this. I don’t know why sometimes it takes so long for me to get the words out while other times they flow like the sea. I have started writing this a few different times. I just kept getting stuck after the first paragraph.

Promila, from the bottom of my heart to the very depths of my soul, thank you. For allowing me to share my burdens with you and for the generosity that came from your soul. And for your friendship and your encouragement. Bless you.

I hope all who have been celebrating the holidays have enjoyed love in abundance in every way that matters.

I hope you have blessed and have been blessed and that it will continue and get stronger throughout the coming year(s). If you’ve blessed someone else, then you surel have been blessed yourself.

If you truly want to be blessed please read Jason Mraz’s blog. Really. He has blessed me so much. And to think it all began with a song. More on that later.

Sending you hugs with love…
Write From the Heart
Diana

I wasn’t expecting to use this url again, but I’m really glad I can. For some reasons that will become known later. The reasons have everything to do with the synchronicities that have been flowing rapidly and have brought a new phase of awareness in my life. Yet I’m still not sure about their meanings.. I think I have a clue, but I need more time. Although I don’t know how much time I need, they leave me thirsty for more and so I”m drinking it all in and loving the journey so much.

I know I”m being cryptic. I just want to dedicate at least one blog post, if not more, about those synchronicities that are connected. Oh, my goodness. I smile just thinking about them.

Thanksgiving was pretty quiet this year for me. My daughter went to her father and step-mother’s and so I had the day to myself. My mind was preoccupied on what I was being cryptic about above. I just didn’t feel like writing about it. And now I’m getting sleepy since it’s 4:01 in the morning. But I wanted to get this published so that you know that I’m here.

Since my daughter turned 17 in October, there have been some changes that I’ve been trying to adjust to. It hasn’t been easy, but it’s getting better. This will be another subject to blog about.

I haven’t forgotten about the people I’m going to write about. Especially one very special lady in particular. Sometimes it’s so hard for me to put my deep feelings out there for the world to read. That’s when I think about it too much. That’s why it’s better to write when I”m in the flow.

I was going to save this as draft, because I’m more sleepy now than I was before and I’m not finished. At least I don’t think I am. But instead I’m going to publish it and then if I have more to say, I’ll blog about it in a new blog post.

And if I don’t write about my synchronicities soon I think I might burst:). First. I need rest. Now it’s 4:23. I started writing this an hour ago. Good night. Good morning or whatever the case may be in your part of the world.

With hugs and love…no vagueness about it.:)

Now I have the voice of Rafiki, the baboon from the Lion King stuck in my head.:)

Please forgive me for abandoning my blog. I feel as if I abandoned my readers as well. I would imagine that my readers gave up on me coming back. If you did, I don’t blame you. If you were a reader and are reading this now, thank you for coming back. If you are a new reader, welcome.

I completely forgot about that post from February. It’s been sitting in the Draft folder all this time. I didn’t know how long the break would last. It was necessary, though and I’ll share my thoughts about why in other posts.

So yes, I really am back now. I have so much to write about. There are so many people who have helped me to grow since January and I want to acknowledge and thank them. I’ve had so many synchronicities and am looking forward to sharing them with you.

Many of the people who have helped me are people I follow on Twitter. Something I never expected to get involved with. But I’m so glad I did.

I truly hope that I can be a source of inspiration for someone. That is part of my purpose for being here on earth. I’m more sure of that now than ever.

I wrote about being More Focused on my other blog and it’s true. Sure, I still get easily distracted, but I’ve learned how to focus better. It took awhile, but it’s working.

I look forward to writing here again about the synchronicities in my life and the people who I have connected with because of some of them.

I love you

I’m afraid I haven’t been a source of inspiration lately. And for that I’m sorry. It’s the reason I haven’t written here lately.

People who teach about the Law of Attraction says that we get what we focus on. If that’s true, then that must be why I’m struggling financially. They also say how to stop, but it’s easier said than done when you are right in the middle of the river that you feel like you’re drowing in because the current is so strong. And fully accepting what is when you are worried about what might happen (and sometimes does) doesn’t help matters much.

Some days I think positive about my life and then there are those days when the negative thoughts just keep flowing. Maybe I just need a break from here for awhile.

Maybe I’ll be able to take this time to get to know my soul better. Get to know who I really am and maybe that will help me to learn what I really want and what my purpose really is. Sometimes I still don’t know.

When I come back, and that is my intention, I want to come back with a more positive mindset. Until then, take care.

Just a little while ago I was writing a draft for a blog post for my other blog. I was considering writing about not living up to my full potential. I got stuck. I couldn’t think of the words, “living up to”, as in “living up to my full potential”. You ever do that? It’s frustrating to say the least.

Anyway, I googled “full potential” hoping to find the right words that I wanted to say. Although the blog I found, written by James Rick at his web site, Full Potential, didn’t help me remember those words, I noticed a synchronicity when I saw the tag line, “It Feels Good!”

I had just been thinking about how I want to focus so much more on feeling good than I do. This must include doing things that feel good (as long as I’m doing no harm to anyone). I just thought that was so cool to find in such a short period. How long? Within seconds of my thoughts.

What a way to begin the new year, eh?

I just wanted to share this with you before I turned in for the night. This actually happened before midnight, but I had a couple things to do first. And this has taken me longer than I expected it to. It’s a good first post for the new year, anyway.:)

Good night (or morning) and Happy New Year!