Authentic Living and Secrets

How can the two co-exist?

Fantasies, imagination and daydreams are all healthy unless and until they get out of control. Some people take their fantasies too far. Far beyond authentic living where the secrets lie. Meaning inauthentic living or out of authentic living. And there the ego is allowed to take control where no man should authentically go…without the Soul to console.

When does one say enough is enough? When it’s too close for comfort? When names are revealed?

P.S.: I would tend to have more faith in the Soul my Soul has been following in order to serve.

Perfect timing…

“If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.” ~ Paulo Coelho

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Notes of Illusions

I want to get these notes down before I go to sleep.

Yesterday at 11:00 in the morning, I watched a movie called, “Stay”. One quote from the movie that I want to share is, “Life is an illusion”. That’s all I’m going to say for now.

Sometime in the afternoon, after the movie was over, I visited the DailyOM web site and because of that quote, when I saw the article called, “Seeing the Illusion – The Secret of Surrender” intuitively I knew I needed to read it. So I opened the page read a few sentences and then I got distracted.

I left the page open for hours without returning to finish reading it until a short time ago. I’ll leave the rest for later.

Goodnight,  good morning, good afternoon. Whatever the case may be for you…enjoy. :-)

P.S. Famous Dreams – Nicholas Flamel

Famous Dreams – Charles Dickens

“Dreams are witnessed in that small theatre of the brain which we keep brightly lighted all night long, after the jets are down, and darkness and sleep reign undisturbed in the remainder of the body. ~ Robert Louis Stevenson

~Love~

Diana

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Dream 22

*This is a note to say that I will be blogging about a dream I had 22 years ago. I think I have it posted on another blog, but I’ve had some revelations since then. Once I find it and put down the new discoveries, I’ll be posting it right here on this blog post.

(edit) I changed my mind. For now, here’s the link: The Kiss.

*I haven’t found it yet and I have other blogging projects to do.  I’d rather not, but I may end up rewriting it. I still remember the details. Even after 22 years. :)

*March 27, 2011 – I still haven’t found the original writing of the dream and I still don’t want to rewrite it.

*March 28, 2011 – I finally found it! I had forgotten some details. Like the kiss. It was better than I remembered. I made a discovery over a year ago. Maybe two or perhaps three. It made the dream mean more to me than what it had before. That’s something I want to write about more in depth.

I went through a lot of blog posts from what was my very first blog that I started in March of 2001. That’s what I spent my day with yesterday while looking for the blog post about the dream. Wondering how much different I am now.

I made some blog posts public that were privatized for a long time. I wonder if others will notice a difference between then and now about me or my writing. More open. Less open. Etc.

Speaking of dreams. The spiritual dream which I had last year was in April rather than March. It’s still more than just a dream for me.

With Love,

Diana

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I Guess I’m a Monkey

*This blog post is inspired by a great singer/songwriter, player of words and a man who writes much better than I do and knows a lot more about water conservation, although he also admits to wasting water. I love his honesty. Love the header photo, too.*

Get more information and ways to conserve water on Jason Mraz’s blog:

I must be a monkey

It’s World Water Day. If you have clean drinking water, you are blessed. I feel blessed knowing that my water is safe to use. There are many people who don’t even have a toilet to flush.

My daughter’s father’s family is from Guatemala. They have a limit on how much water they are allowed to use per day. When it comes to showering, it’s first come first serve there. Once the water runs out there is no more until the  following day.

I’m not a role model for conserving water. I don’t fill the sink up for dish water. Sometimes I put water in a bowl and refill it as needed but not always. Sometimes I leave the water on while washing a dish.

I also flush the toilet when I’m finished. If my daughter goes to the bathroom when I’m finished and if I don’t flush, I worry that she might get some splash of my pee on her. And visa versa. I think that’s just gross and unsanitary. So, we both flush.

Except when the toilet looks like it’s ready to flood in which case I leave a note for my daughter saying “Please do not flush”. I don’t want to embarass anyone by going into detail about it. I’ll just say this: Gross.

Maybe writing this will help me to remember to be a better water conserver.

Speaking of water, I love the ocean, but I don’t know if I still want to have a beach house. Or if I’d want to live too close to the ocean. Tsunamis and hurricanes scare me.

But I shouldn’t let that stop me, right? I still want to be near the ocean. I’ve only been to the ocean once that I can remember. That was 30 years ago when I was in bootcamp. It was a hot summer day in Myrtle Beach, SC.

Respect the water.

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It is Time…

“It…is..time, woooo.” (ghost of a bus driver)

“It’s time…Woo?” (ghost of Milo)

Ever seen the movie, “Heart and Souls?” That is one of my favorite scenes. When the ghost of the bus driver tells the other ghosts that it’s time for them to go with him to be reincarnated. It’s a sweet and corny movie.

The wish for a big hug chokes me up every time. It’s so sweet.

Well anyway, this is my way of saying that it’s time for my return to blogging here. Of course, it’s no coincidence that my muse is ready right now. There are no accidents. There are, however, many synchronicities and perfect divine timing.

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Waiting for an Answer From Within

“Before making a decision, ask inside for guidance. Be patient and await an answer. Act only when you feel calm and certain”. Deepak Chopra, The Soul of Leadership

This is what I’m doing. It’s pretty much what I’ve been doing for some time now. This doesn’t mean I’m going to stop writing, though. Just possibly, reconsidering writing about certain topics. Not that I want that. But maybe it’s for the best.

“Don’t look for meaning in the words. Listen to the silences.” ~ Samuel Beckett quoted in Forty Days of Solitude by Doris Grumbach

xxx

From my email this morning:

Has “you not knowing how,” Diana, ever stopped me before?

Has “you not knowing the way,” ever kept it hidden from me?

Has “you not knowing when,” ever stopped me from figuring it out?

Ever?

Ever, ever?

Or, Diana, do I revel in such freedoms?

The Universe

TUT

xxx

There are things so deep and complex that only intuition can reach it in our stage of development as human beings. -John Astin

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Healing Ceremony for Dr. David Simon

Today, January 22, from 4:00-7:30 pm, there is going to be a special healing event for The Chopra Center co-founder, Dr. David Simon at La Costa Resort in Carlsbad, CA.

Anyone unable to attend the healing ceremony will be able to be with those in attendance in spirit, including Dr. Simon and his family by meditating from where we are at the same time as the group meditation which will be at 5:45 to 6:15 p.m. (PST).

“Our intention for this event is to create a way for the extended community to come together with the collective intention for healing –– both for David and all those coping with difficult health situations.”

I’m sending my love and healing energy to Dr. Simon and anyone else conflicted with health problems. I’m also sending love and blessings to everyone at the Chopra Center and all involved in this healing ceremony.

See you in the Gap.

Namaste

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What’s the Meaning of 1-11-11?

There are a lot of perspectives and I’ll share at least one or two with you. Not mine. Not yet anyway.

I found an interesting article on a blog that I’m going to be reading through: 1-11-11 Another Day of One’s and the Intuitive Meaning. In this article, Estee Taschereau, the founder of Intuitive Meaning writes about today’s date and the numbers five (because the one’s add up to five) and nine, in relation to the Mayan calendar.

It looks like I found a valuable resource for my creativity which seems to have been lacking lately. I apologize to my Muse who I haven’t been giving enough attention to for my writing endeavors.

Awesome. A new perspective on spirituality. I’m looking forward to learning something new and seeing how I can apply it to my own life. How about you?

Oh, I also like how she says “let’s have a little fun”. Yes. Let’s. Shall we?:)

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Thoughts and Tips for 2011

Happy New Year! (Happy Jan. 2, 2011.)

Cool. It’s 1-1-11. It’s like seeing 11:11 on the clock all day. It means angels are near. Make a wish.:) (Yesterday from Twitter.)

At the end of 2009 and the beginning of 2010, I felt an energy flowing through me that I didn’t understand. I read other blogs that also spoke of an energy. Many called it a shift. Or an energy shift. That’s a good way of describing it.

I can explain some of it, but by doing that I would need to explain more than I’m ready to right now. I’ve shared some of my story and now I wonder if maybe I shouldn’t have. But, what’s done is done and the best we all can do is live in the present moment by not fretting about the past or worrying about the future. And embrace the unknown. Easier said than done, I know.

Since I’m not one for keeping New Year’s resolutions, I haven’t nor am I going to be making any once again this year. If I really want to accomplish something, it doesn’t matter if it’s in the beginning of the year, the middle of the year, or the end of the year, unless there’s a specific time I want to accomplish whatever it is.

I’m also not one for sharing my plans before I begin a project. It’s better for me, personally, to keep my goals to myself for awhile, at least until I’m in the middle of it or almost finished. But it depends on the type of project and whether I want feedback or not.

I’m not going to say I’m excited about the new year because I don’t know what it’s going to bring. I may not be so excited by some of it. Better to stay neutral and just take it as it happens. In other words, remain detached. Something else that’s easier said than done.

Those that I say are easier said than done are not impossible to accomplish, either.

Tips:

Live in the present moment
Embrace the unknown
Practice detachment

So, I’m not going to share what I’m planning on doing this year. Not until I feel the time is right.

Blessings

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The Ego’s Torment vs. a Soul’s Love

I don’t think that being a soulful writer always means being gentle and loving with my words. No. There’s much more to it than that. Passionate, soulful, blunt, authentic, courageous writers who pull no punches. These are soulful writers.

They bitch, whine, laugh, cry, scream, curl themselves up in balls in a corner, drenched in sweat, rocking back and forth, praying that someone out there will rescue them from whatever is tormenting them deep inside. Their soul yearns to bring out the best in them and too often it’s just not good enough..

For the audience yes. Some know all too well those feelings of self-loathing. We listen to that demon within. That voice that says to “give it up, already”. You are not worthy. You’ve got nothing. I can change your mind with a word. Failure!

And yet we feel it in our souls. That deep-seeded aching need to spill our hearts out letter by letter, word by word. We find a way to shut the demon up if only for that moment of time. Each moment moves on to the next. We give up and go back torturing ourselves and loving and hating what we write. The never-ending torturous love affair between a writer and her words.

x x x

What do you think? Does that sound like a tortured soul? I wrote it on July 19, 2005. It kind of resonates with me right now. I guess it has for 9 months.

Lately that demon (the ego) has been tormenting me. I wish I could just write more of what I want without fear of upsetting or hurting anyone. I know I shouldn’t let that stop me, but there is a reason it does. And there’s only one person I’d give this reason to.

I guess this is a start. I need to practice allowing my Soul to write for me. I’m kind of rusty. I could speak it verbally very easily. She wants to speak to the one who is my constant Soul Companion, in my waking hours and while I dream. This began 9 months ago with that first dream.. You are a God-send. In the very literal sense of the word. I don’t know the reason, all I know is the love deep within.

There are no accidents. There is a purpose for everything. It’s all for a higher purpose. Of this, I’m sure.

I’ve loved you since March (edit: make that since April). And the love has never dissipated. It’s only grown. Right from the Soul.. From my Soul to your Soul. Love remains. No matter what.

x x x

Afterthought: Dark night of the writer’s soul, perhaps?

Thank you for reading.

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